MADDISON, MY LITTLE GIRL....

She couldn't wait , it was time for her to go ......
Maddy was having seizures the week before Christmas ....very short ...less than a minute...but.....on the afternoon of Christmas day she had a heart attack and she was gone...I was on my way home on Boxing day coming across on the Ferry from St. Johns to Digby when I heard...I spent the 3 hour trip sitting outside crying my eyes out ....I am sure a couple of people who didn't know what was wrong were watching ....thinking I might jump.
The question of why wasn't I told on Christmas Day ? maybe because my idiot ex wanted to make sure that Maddy was sent away to be cremated before I got there,thinking I guess,that I would want something different ?
And then I find out that Maddy died alone while idiot was next door having some Christmas Cheer, and also I find out that he abandoned her the day before,running around the neighbourhood having drinks crying on everyone's shoulder that Maddy "was not good" when he should have had his ass home taking care of her. Selfish son of a bitch|!! Always telling everyone how much he loved my dogs and calling them his dogs.
But what can you expect from a drunk anyway. Of all the things that hurt me most about this is that my little girl died alone and there was no need of it...no need at all...had I been there it would never, ever have happened ....she gave me so much love and devotion...I could never have left her alone in her time of need.....